Post Exam Activities

Sleep. I have basically inverted day and night.

Visited my aunt, her second new born grand daughter looks really small...

Went to check on bicycle, wanna get a fold-able bike. It cost a bomb...

Met my intern boss. TMD when i need to do project then i realise i forget all my sql command and connection codes already... Aaarhzzz...

Met kw and xw individually, i dont know why, but i feel meeting them separately have more things to talk. At least i can crap about computer and electronic freely without risking the other one falling asleep, haa...

Met Kel and EK, one Or-ded and another is still fucking with the naive system.

Everyday read up on bike's articles, mechanism, materials, assemble and disassemble, maintenance, etc. Feeling like studying common engineering now.

Book, reading a book call "Uncommon Sense". it is about elementary level psychology. Or rather, it is more to self help book.

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The weather is PMS-ing this few weeks.

While i have mood to swim, it rains, $%^&*(@#%_.$%#

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Met Kel and EK today, accompany them to go buy jia.

Nikon D90, 17-50mm F2.8, total damage sgd1900++, lolx...

Have the urge to buy LX-3, but budget not there.

I guess i will only buy camera using my own money in future...

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mobile 01 . com is really an ultimate 敗家 website

Some of the forumer set their budget on their bike from taiwan dollars 5k initially, after awhile gradually increase to 20k.

It is kind of scary, lolx...

But whatever it is, must have discipline.

Without discipline, all hobby are harmful.

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Dahon VD7 seems damn good.

But it exceed my budget quite a lot..

160% of my initial budget.

It is more expensive than panasonic LX-3...

I must have the discipline to stop myself from getting it.

And also i will get quite a bit of serious nagging if i really buy it, ha...

But feeling a bit sorry to the manager who helped mi in the shop.

He is really ultra friendly.

Alan is trying to arrange shipping from china to hk then to sg for mi.

Thanks a billion of such a super troublesome process...

However.. that means i have to bear all maintenance by myself..

I have not own any bike previously...

Orz...

Stage 2.1 completed.

Today last two papers are done with.

No sch till next year, haa...

Holiday for a month without much of freedom.

Damn the N S system, hai...

But anyway, still quite glad that it has been ended.

This is a tough sem, but much better than last sem, i feel.

My friends all have given mi countless support.

Thanks you all from deep deep of my heart...

Not in the Mood to Study

Since wake up till now,

i have been online and reading non school related books.

Really, dont have the mood to study.

Hai.

One more week and everything will be ended,

for this year,

academically.

First Paper Cleared.

Few days back, first paper cleared.

It was easier than i thought, thanks prof...

But i screwed that lab a big time a month back.

So never mind... bye bye good grade data acq...

Ok, ytd met the rest to pia 207.

Again, is 207 again...

The hang out is like making us to do 7 seminars all together.

It is damn tiring...

But.. i haven't touch my 206 and 205 yet..

205 and elective finance i havent even finish all the lecture slides, omg...

Luck testing in progress...

Eight and a Half Hours Later

Will be starting my first paper.

And i have not yet asleep yet.

Just browsed some of the photos i took,

few months back.

I must be crazy. There shouldn't do any good to anybody i guess.

Why cant i do as what my brain instructs?

Hell, what the fuck am i thinking when i am going to have a paper tml?...

I must be too stressed up lately, haa...

Exam Starting Soon...

Ya, it is starting in no time.

But my mind is still not aligned for the papers.

Feeling a bit hard to absorb the notes.

It is way too much and crazy to KO them within a week.

Still have biz finance.

It would be fun if i have time, why dont let mi study during dec and take the papers during xmas?..

It is like rushing to slack, haa...

Isn't it life this way?...

Try Catch Finally

Finally it is done.

The maths.random() works in front of a group of professors.

And we all believe it is working.

How wonderful can it be?

If, and only if there is no code review, lolx...

Orz...

Now all i need is to focus on the papers...

One week, exactly...

Three Months of Hardwork

For 207, the whole team, all members in sg has put in our effort to come out with the codes.

All logics work!

But.......

It still cant work due to failure to follow agreed standard at the MU, and they are unwilling to change a single line of code...

Damn it...

They just wish db team fail, so that they can freely put the blame on them.

And when db is magically come out with all the required codes within 2~3weeks before deadline,

they started to isolate themselves from constructive conversation.

At the end then we realise their code fail to perform their own designated function...

They designed the logic, and they boss around and tell us what to do, and they themselves can follow what is agreed previously.

Haiz, so sad.

Then our side have to hardcode every fuck shit in order to make the system work.

But.. months of hardwork resulted in freaking hardcode all the init values... wtf...

It is a shame to we engineers to be.

F the MU to the max!!!

Tomorrow is going to see how far our luck is...

It is gonna be funny, wahhahaaaaa......

有時候

有時候，覺得長大了後，找朋友談心越來越難。
可能自己能看懂的事越來越多，就覺得身邉的東西越來越複雜。

能信任的，有時在思想上又不一定有共鳴;
推心致腹的，又大多有男女朋友。

不好意思太打擾他/她們，
不想成為燈泡，也不想為好友添麻煩。

這樣，慢慢地，習慣了獨處，
習慣了一個人。

但是有時,也會覺得不大習慣。。

Sat, a Lazy Day..

Spent a couple of hours on facebook.

Processed and uploaded all the photos taken in school this year.

So little photos were taken.

Last time in poly, i could possibly take the same amount of photos within a day.

Studied a paper of 208. Read a bit of 205.

This is what i have done for today.

I think i missed the 207 quiz this week.

Forgot to do, arhzz...

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Really get bored with 207.

Seminar, wiki, quiz, clicker, project meeting, coding...

Rather unproductive seriously...

Lab3 Screwed..

Today data acq and signal processing lab 3 screwed a big time.

Sad for the whole morning...

It seems i am quite slack compare to the rest of them,

but i just dont know why i cant seem to be able to focus for a long period of time without going into power saving mode.

But anyway, it is over and done with. Hai.

Tml 207 software engine testing, rmi bug should be still there, chien cant fix it, and i dont know how to fix it.

See if we can come out with a cheat code algorithm to bypass that problem.

Damn, deadline is coming. And EXAM is coming......

In one month's time,

it will be holiday.

Before that, let's go hell first.

In hell, be happy, enjoy!

One of my good friend's mum pass away few days back.

As she is heading to another journey, wish my friend would be equipped with the wisdom to face the upcoming challenges in live.

Life is tough, but we are tougher.

Therefore we exist.

Some How..

Some how the code screwed...

It is really terrible, consider the time and resource my team put into it...

Sad.. Hope the bugs can get fix soon.

EmailWar.jar

I really have no idea, since when,

i am getting involved so deep in the war of emailing,

which i seriously hate to do so.

I can sit down and draft for half an hour to plan for the structure of the mail,

use humble and precise language to get to the point,

when in reality i simply cant sit still to write a proper document.

It sounds truly ironic.

Today p r o f - k a j has asked me about how was the m q going.

I just explain to him whatever in my mind.

I have learnt something too.

Prof taught mi to judge and comment on people only by his work, never by the person.

And he told mi to remember this:

"You will have people of your own. Remember this."

I will.

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I am trying really hard, to avoid it into political wargaming.

I myself really hate it a lot...

And why i am appearing to be doing this. Hai.

But... I know from technical point of view, i am correct...

Should i be cooperating, easygoing, and do the stupid thing, or be hard like nut to implement the correct thing?...

It really challenges my sense of logic and ethics..

Project

207 has taken up a large portion of my time.

And i start to feel lost with my other modules.

i havent not been attending lecture for 205 and 206 for quite a while,

all i do is self reading and webcast, and i am lagging behind.

Need to adjust the time spend on project.

Must learn to stop when it is completed, no point doing till perfect.

From Heaven to Hell, to Heaven to Hell.

This is what i have been experiencing this week.

It is quite happening.

Wed, presented micro processor to prof.

Quite happy with it, coz finally it is done with tremendous help from my partner.

Same day, i went for blood donation.

Dont know what happen, shortly after the needle went into my arm, my arm felt numb.

I could sense that not enough blood is pumped into the arm.

But i didnt expect that i almost nearly go faint half way thru.

Luckily the nurse noticed something wrong with mi and check my blood pressure.

Three nurses act on mi, one stop the blood flow to bag and unplug needle, two pull up the bed and make mi upside down.

I am surprise that they can do it within a matters of seconds.

It's extremely fast even before i know what's happening.

Or honestly, my brain wasnt able to think or react at that moment.

Beside "errr.. ya..." i cant think of any words to construct a sentence properly.

At the end the doctor check on mi, it's ok.

Just wasted a bag of my blood coz cant fill the bag.

The world is quite happening recently as well,

and the people from neighboring countries may need blood. Hai.

Wasnt able to do anything that day.

Just went home sleep after dinner.

It is an indication that i really have to do exercise to train my cardio.

It is way too fuck up. I sit too much in lab, arhzz....

Next day, did the logbook for mcu, write till dont know what to write.

At night went to eat fried rice with pork rib with my uni friends.

They called mi when i was feeling damn bored.

So just tag with them for dinner.

End up we talk for so long that the restaurant closed...

First we ask redefineable wear dress, she is consider one of the creature that can be classified as female in our course. Serious. And we dont understand why girls can use their appearance to their advantage but they dont use it, sometimes.

Second, it is mi... Why am i dont have gf.

Erm, this question has been asked countless of time. Dont you feel bored buddies?...

Dont really have anyone in mind.

And i feel matching is like.. erm, imagine you bring your dog to breed. I feel in similar way you know.

The day will come i believe.

It is either my determination on my choosiness pay mi a handsome, or my stubbornness render mi single for life.

I believe in tai zhi, whereby no matter how good something is, it contains something bad, and no matter how bad something is, it contains something good. There is no absolute good or bad on this universe.

So, i am happy with either ending.

Case close.

Back to school.

Projects are submerging mi...

I feel damn chill when seeing the deadline for software engine,

but at the same time i am doubt with myself.

You know, after so long i have been in uni,

finally i feel the excitement of project deadline.

The feeling is back with extreme pressure.

That explain why i am still awake now at 4.55am.

Tomorrow sat, will be meeting my teammate before noon.

I will enjoy my weekend with Netbean.

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I Keep On Telling Myself.

I can make it.

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And on certain thing,

I keep on telling myself.

I cant.

It is ok to play hard, but i cant treat it seriously.

This is what i am telling myself.

For a particular matter.

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As a guy, i hate multi-tasking.

Cant everything be single threaded?...

Inclusive of all problem...

The 8th week.

This is the 8th week of sem1.

Tues, i went to listen to a talk in sch.

And there is this psychotherapist talking about how to make one learn more effectively.

After listening, i was feeling quite motivated.

I am gonna to tell myself more good stuffs.

I will turn myself to the positive side.

Knowledge is just a bunch of theory on paper if i cant make use of it.

The most important thing on knowledge is, make it work for you.

Make the theory jump out of paper, and do a wonder for you and people around you!

I must remind myself to view things positively.

Have to do something to change my subconscious...

It has been so negatively affected by ns, i feel...

Tml will be a better day~!

Feeling Negative

Cant fall asleep.

Just feel negative, for no obvious again. Hai.

Wish tomorrow never come.

School starts again..

Why my perspective has changed so much after ns?...

School supposes to be fun.

Everything which i am learning now,

suppose to be really damn fun.

When i was a kid,

i dream of playing this kind of toys everyday.

Why am i feeling so helpless now.

Despite so many people are helping mi..

Hai. I dont understand what am i thinking.

Some conflict between my superego and id, haa...

Just wanna get a shoulder and cry...