Sat, a Lazy Day..

Spent a couple of hours on facebook.

Processed and uploaded all the photos taken in school this year.

So little photos were taken.

Last time in poly, i could possibly take the same amount of photos within a day.

Studied a paper of 208. Read a bit of 205.

This is what i have done for today.

I think i missed the 207 quiz this week.

Forgot to do, arhzz...

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Really get bored with 207.

Seminar, wiki, quiz, clicker, project meeting, coding...

Rather unproductive seriously...

Lab3 Screwed..

Today data acq and signal processing lab 3 screwed a big time.

Sad for the whole morning...

It seems i am quite slack compare to the rest of them,

but i just dont know why i cant seem to be able to focus for a long period of time without going into power saving mode.

But anyway, it is over and done with. Hai.

Tml 207 software engine testing, rmi bug should be still there, chien cant fix it, and i dont know how to fix it.

See if we can come out with a cheat code algorithm to bypass that problem.

Damn, deadline is coming. And EXAM is coming......

In one month's time,

it will be holiday.

Before that, let's go hell first.

In hell, be happy, enjoy!

One of my good friend's mum pass away few days back.

As she is heading to another journey, wish my friend would be equipped with the wisdom to face the upcoming challenges in live.

Life is tough, but we are tougher.

Therefore we exist.

Some How..

Some how the code screwed...

It is really terrible, consider the time and resource my team put into it...

Sad.. Hope the bugs can get fix soon.

EmailWar.jar

I really have no idea, since when,

i am getting involved so deep in the war of emailing,

which i seriously hate to do so.

I can sit down and draft for half an hour to plan for the structure of the mail,

use humble and precise language to get to the point,

when in reality i simply cant sit still to write a proper document.

It sounds truly ironic.

Today p r o f - k a j has asked me about how was the m q going.

I just explain to him whatever in my mind.

I have learnt something too.

Prof taught mi to judge and comment on people only by his work, never by the person.

And he told mi to remember this:

"You will have people of your own. Remember this."

I will.

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I am trying really hard, to avoid it into political wargaming.

I myself really hate it a lot...

And why i am appearing to be doing this. Hai.

But... I know from technical point of view, i am correct...

Should i be cooperating, easygoing, and do the stupid thing, or be hard like nut to implement the correct thing?...

It really challenges my sense of logic and ethics..

Project

207 has taken up a large portion of my time.

And i start to feel lost with my other modules.

i havent not been attending lecture for 205 and 206 for quite a while,

all i do is self reading and webcast, and i am lagging behind.

Need to adjust the time spend on project.

Must learn to stop when it is completed, no point doing till perfect.

From Heaven to Hell, to Heaven to Hell.

This is what i have been experiencing this week.

It is quite happening.

Wed, presented micro processor to prof.

Quite happy with it, coz finally it is done with tremendous help from my partner.

Same day, i went for blood donation.

Dont know what happen, shortly after the needle went into my arm, my arm felt numb.

I could sense that not enough blood is pumped into the arm.

But i didnt expect that i almost nearly go faint half way thru.

Luckily the nurse noticed something wrong with mi and check my blood pressure.

Three nurses act on mi, one stop the blood flow to bag and unplug needle, two pull up the bed and make mi upside down.

I am surprise that they can do it within a matters of seconds.

It's extremely fast even before i know what's happening.

Or honestly, my brain wasnt able to think or react at that moment.

Beside "errr.. ya..." i cant think of any words to construct a sentence properly.

At the end the doctor check on mi, it's ok.

Just wasted a bag of my blood coz cant fill the bag.

The world is quite happening recently as well,

and the people from neighboring countries may need blood. Hai.

Wasnt able to do anything that day.

Just went home sleep after dinner.

It is an indication that i really have to do exercise to train my cardio.

It is way too fuck up. I sit too much in lab, arhzz....

Next day, did the logbook for mcu, write till dont know what to write.

At night went to eat fried rice with pork rib with my uni friends.

They called mi when i was feeling damn bored.

So just tag with them for dinner.

End up we talk for so long that the restaurant closed...

First we ask redefineable wear dress, she is consider one of the creature that can be classified as female in our course. Serious. And we dont understand why girls can use their appearance to their advantage but they dont use it, sometimes.

Second, it is mi... Why am i dont have gf.

Erm, this question has been asked countless of time. Dont you feel bored buddies?...

Dont really have anyone in mind.

And i feel matching is like.. erm, imagine you bring your dog to breed. I feel in similar way you know.

The day will come i believe.

It is either my determination on my choosiness pay mi a handsome, or my stubbornness render mi single for life.

I believe in tai zhi, whereby no matter how good something is, it contains something bad, and no matter how bad something is, it contains something good. There is no absolute good or bad on this universe.

So, i am happy with either ending.

Case close.

Back to school.

Projects are submerging mi...

I feel damn chill when seeing the deadline for software engine,

but at the same time i am doubt with myself.

You know, after so long i have been in uni,

finally i feel the excitement of project deadline.

The feeling is back with extreme pressure.

That explain why i am still awake now at 4.55am.

Tomorrow sat, will be meeting my teammate before noon.

I will enjoy my weekend with Netbean.

. . . . . .>.<

I Keep On Telling Myself.

I can make it.

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And on certain thing,

I keep on telling myself.

I cant.

It is ok to play hard, but i cant treat it seriously.

This is what i am telling myself.

For a particular matter.

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As a guy, i hate multi-tasking.

Cant everything be single threaded?...

Inclusive of all problem...

The 8th week.

This is the 8th week of sem1.

Tues, i went to listen to a talk in sch.

And there is this psychotherapist talking about how to make one learn more effectively.

After listening, i was feeling quite motivated.

I am gonna to tell myself more good stuffs.

I will turn myself to the positive side.

Knowledge is just a bunch of theory on paper if i cant make use of it.

The most important thing on knowledge is, make it work for you.

Make the theory jump out of paper, and do a wonder for you and people around you!

I must remind myself to view things positively.

Have to do something to change my subconscious...

It has been so negatively affected by ns, i feel...

Tml will be a better day~!

Feeling Negative

Cant fall asleep.

Just feel negative, for no obvious again. Hai.

Wish tomorrow never come.

School starts again..

Why my perspective has changed so much after ns?...

School supposes to be fun.

Everything which i am learning now,

suppose to be really damn fun.

When i was a kid,

i dream of playing this kind of toys everyday.

Why am i feeling so helpless now.

Despite so many people are helping mi..

Hai. I dont understand what am i thinking.

Some conflict between my superego and id, haa...

Just wanna get a shoulder and cry...

Ugly Truth.

Just watched this movie, at jp, at 0000, alone, with myself, and me.

It is a great show. Go catch it.

Despite it being so funny, giving so much laughers,

it is educational, in some way.

Some how i feel more toward to the girl side,

I need to be more conscious of it. haa...

To think like a man or woman, to mi, is a daulism.

You simply the model into two extreme ends, and view it.

It is simple, but often it fail to represent complicated concepts or ideas.

I used to get criticized from one of my close friend, who said i am professional in creating a basis model to rationalize my thinking and action.

Man and Woman, god and evil, or, evil and god, whatever you call it.

It is overly simplify.

Man needs sex, yes. But it doesnt mean love cant get involve.

There is a different in degree or extend which it involves. It is true for the opposite too.

It just like some god kills for goodness,

while evil would save someone's life to do evil thing.

You cant really say good or bad. It can be both good or bad, depends on where you view it.

Doesnt it fall in the concept of dualism?...

If you want to make life easier, yes, dualism works fine.

Ya, it's fine. It may not be enough to represent the true model, but that's ok.

At least, now, we dont see black as black, white as white,

but they are a range of gradients.

Wouldnt life be more beautiful this way?...

And, if you think a little bit more, you will see colors in life.

This is what i feel... about life.

Oh shit someone is going to say i create basis model to rationalize my thought again, haa...

Hi,

This is the dumbest thing i have done,

may possibly be the dumbest thing for the year.

Today, i went to lib to meet a friend for lab project report.

He told mi he would have lunch with a friend, then go library.

So, as usual, he reached first.

And his friend came along with him too.

I just tap my friend's shoulder and sit down beside him.

After a while, as my friend didnt intro the girl to mi, i waved hand and say hi, and start crapping for a short while.

His friend smile to mi and say hi back, and then start studying again.

After a while, that girl leave the table, for a while.

And... My friend said...

Friend: You know her one ma?

Me: No lei, not your friend mah?

Friend: I have lunch with my friend only. HE went back to camp.

Me: HUH?!!!

Friend: HE sign on one...

ME: Your friend is not that lady?!!...

Friend: No la, if she is my friend i confirm intro to you.

ME: WTF........................................................

Friend: No worry, she did smile back to you, lolx...

ME: @#$%^&*)&#@$%&...........................

Oh fuck! I was so dumb ~__~!!

What Am I Doing?..

Recently i keep on asking myself this question.

What am i doing.

I feel i have been spending more time to stablise my emotion, or trying to study lately.

Instead of study, most of the time i am wasted on attempting to study.

I just cant make my brain focus and study.

Really, if i can study for 3 hours a day,

everything will be ok.

I am not asking for something like thinking automatically while walking,

which i used to do in the past.

Just some simple, focused, 3 hours on the chair, in front of the table, with a clear mind.

That's enough.

Today After 207.

On the way to lift, one guy say that everytime he opens book, there are two options appear on his mind uncontrollably.

First is to jump down from building.

Second is to quit school.

To me second option is totally out.

I only have first option i think?...

Anyway, this sem is far much better than last sem.

At least i dont face the first option everytime i open my books, haa...

《轉載》在女孩眼中帥哥與醜男的分別

I MUST paste this on my blog. Cuz i find that this is so damn true.
Taken from kelcium’s blog. Hope u don’t mind kelcium.

帥哥微笑— 陽光。醜男微笑— 猥瑣
帥哥對自己微笑— 討厭。醜男對自己微笑— 變態
帥哥留鬚— 不羈。醜男留鬚— 不修邊幅
帥哥看書— 斯文。醜男看書— 書呆子
帥哥做運動— 活力。醜男做運動— 減肥
帥哥睡著了— 可愛。醜男睡著了— 懶惰
帥哥口甜舌滑— 風趣。醜男口甜舌滑— 流氓
帥哥一言不發— 冷酷。醜男一言不發— 自閉
帥哥對女士禮讓— 風度。醜男對女士禮讓— 不安好心眼
帥哥耍溫柔— 體貼。醜男耍溫柔— 娘娘腔
帥哥裝豪邁— 男人味。醜男裝豪邁— 粗漢一名
帥哥的頭髮被風吹起— 瀟灑。醜男的頭髮被風吹起— 頭皮屑別飄過來!
帥哥拒絕了自己— 感到惋惜。醜男拒絕了自己— 死同性戀
帥哥放了個屁— 一定是旁邊那個醜男幹的！

Updates, After a Month Of School.

Oh well, school isn't that bad.

In fact i am quite enjoying it.

I was unable to cope with too many AU last sem.

This sem, with four cores and one elective, i start to appreciate what i am learning.

I can pause and see what am i doing, have little time to think about how all the courses are able to get integrated themselves.

Still, busy like dog...

But, i am enjoying it.

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Memory failing and lost of concentration.

Have quite a bit of problem during long meeting.

Points are often omitted accidentially.

And this will eventually get mi into some shit, arhhzzzzzz...

I shall sleep a bit more the day before meeting..

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I love Java.

I do really love it.

Once you have tried assembly or embedded C, you will love Java.

Oh my mov.b #0, R0L

Come, let us pray:

Oh Java you saviour of programmers.

I shall run you in all machines.

Let your codes shine on all operating systems.

Forever and ever... XD

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Status for BGR is still empty.

And thanks for my uni friends create association for mi with all cn entities, you all are going to eat drink walk talk play sleep with 207 soon.

And ya. Luckily i am not being associated with piezo-electric.

That's way too scary... XDD

Study Difficulties

Feeling a bit lost.

I cant focus still, it's almost a month since school start.

Why others can do it and i cant?

I always ask myself.

I understand my brain is single threaded.

It just not built for multiprocessing.

It is in either relax or serious mode.

I need to tune myself to another mode asap.

. . .

Looked at the assembly code,

it is really not getting into my brain.

A complete waste of my time,

by myself.

差不多先生傳

It is a chapter in my chinese text book, which i still remember clearly.
I hardly can remember things well most of the time.

Sometimes, i really feel i am becoming more and more easy going.
Or you can say, i just don't give a damn to whatever things which doesn't affect me directly.

For sure, it isn't good. May be i should be a little more aware of things around mi..
Ha...

差不多先生傳 - 胡適



你知道中國最有名的人是誰？提起此人，人人皆曉，處處聞名，他姓差，名不多，是各省各縣各村人氏。你一定見過他，一定聽過別人談起他，差不多先生的名字，天天掛在大家的口頭，因為他是中國全國人的代表。

差不多先生的相貌，和你和我都差不多。他有一雙眼睛，但看的不很清楚；有兩隻耳朵，但聽的不很分明；有鼻子和嘴，但他對於氣味和口味都不很講究；他的腦子也不小，但他的記性卻不很精明，他的思想也不細密。

他常常說：「凡事只要差不多，就好了。何必太精明呢？」

他小時候，他媽叫他去買紅糖，他買了白糖回來，他媽罵他，他搖搖頭道：「紅糖，白糖，不是差不多嗎？」

他在學堂的時候，先生問他：「直隸省的西邊是哪一省？」他說是陝西。先生說：「錯了，是山西，不是陝西。」他說：「陝西同山西，不是差不多嗎？」

後來他在一個錢鋪裏做夥計；他也會寫，也會算，只是總不會精細；十字常常寫成千字，千字常常寫成十字。掌櫃的生氣了，常常罵他，他只笑嘻嘻地賠小心道：「千字比十字多一小撇，不是差不多嗎？」

有一天，他為了一件要緊的事，要搭火車到上海去，他從從容容地走到火車站，遲了兩分鐘，火車已開走了。他白瞪著眼，望著遠遠的火車上的煤煙，搖搖頭道：「只好明天再走了，今天走同明天走，也還差不多；可是火車公司未免太認真了。八點三十分開，同八點三十二分開，不是差不多嗎？」他一面說，一面慢慢地走回家，心裏總不很明白為甚麼火車不肯等他兩分鐘。

有一天，他忽然得一急病，趕快叫家人去請東街的汪先生。那家人急急忙忙跑去，一時尋不著東街的汪大夫，卻把西街的牛醫王大夫請來了。差不多先生病在上，知道尋錯了人；但病急了，身上痛苦，心裏焦急，等不得了，心裏想道：「好在王大夫同汪大夫也差不多，讓他試試看罷。」於是這位牛醫王大夫走近前，用醫牛的法子給差不多先生治病。不上一點鐘，差不多先生就一命嗚呼了。

差不多先生差不多要死的時候，一口氣斷斷續續地說道：「活人同死人也差……差……差……不多，……凡事只要……差……差……不多……就……好了，何……必……太……太認真呢？」他說完了這句格言，就絕了氣。

他死後，大家都很稱讚差不多先生樣樣事情看得破，想得通；大家都說他一生不肯認真，不肯算帳，不肯計較，真是一位有德行的人。於是大家給他取個死後的法號，叫他做圓通大師。

他的名譽愈傳愈遠，愈久愈大，無數無數的人，都學他的榜樣，於是人人都成了一個差不多先生。──然而中國從此就成了一個懶人國了。

Blog or dont Blog?...

Actually, there are quite a number of things i feel like blogging.

But it is kind of sensitive to blog.

Consider of doing an encrypted blog...

But it defeats the idea of blogging.

Hai, where to find a perosn to talk all those fuck shit out...